Clark Cunt stopped by to make sure I wasn’t doing anything stupid, and the above exchange took place. It seems like all of my exes always have something awesome to say about me and to me.
Which begs the question, if I’m so fucking awesome, why am I the woman who is always being left?
No, I mean, seriously.
And not just by the super kick ass dudes that I date, but every Fuckboy, unemployed sack of shit dude who has the audacity to darken my doorstep. I’m always the one hearing “it’s not you…”, so maybe, just maybe, it is me.
I’ve started doing some introspection, as I would really like to know exactly what it is that makes me, not the type of woman you want to spend your life with, but the type of woman you tell is amazing and talented, and just a whole wad of blah blah, but in the end I’m just not her.
So, with that being said, I’m going to spend the rest of this year getting to the bottom of this alleged mystery. There has to be something about me that says “nah, she isn’t all that great”.
Recently, I read this column on Medium, and I’ve decided if it can be broken down into 3 simple acts, maybe I’m just not paying attention to the warning signs on purpose. Maybe I’m just refusing to see the things that should be just as plain as the nose on my face.
This is not only a season of “get my head out of my ass”, but also the season of “why does everyone always leave me?” I intend to have some answers before the year concludes.
Either that, or we’ll switch back to the anger management app and see if I can’t prevent myself from punching some people in the throat. It’s a toss-up at this point.
Sometimes it really is them, though. And I mean this as a compliment: you can be intimidating to men. A woman who doesn’t need them shifts the control dynamic.
I feel this and I've wondered the same. At this point I can't picture myself anything but single. Not sure if I'm ok with that or just completely numb. I'm swiftly approaching 50 and have a bad attitude 🙃 I look forward to your follow-up, darling.